Sweet baby. My heart is so full up with you. I breathe you in, watch your hands curl and uncurl, knowing that all I can do is love you right now in this moment as completely as my heart is able, even as you grow and change before my very eyes.
I want to hoard it all, the chubby fists, the sleepy rubbing of the eyes, the delighted squeal when we dance with you or fly you around the room, the way you lean back in my arms to look at me and smile. I want none of it to go. And I want to never hold you back from anything you need to grow.
My heart weeps and rejoices. I hold you as you sleep, listening as each small breath enters your lungs and leaves you, changed.
This is really a lovely post. I was holding Jack today after his nap and thinking that soon I won't be able to hold him that long anymore, as he is getting so big.
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